What's on Mummy's mind

Today Summer decided that she will wean herself, meaning that she doesn't want me to nurse her anymore. Most of you may know that I had been exclusively breastfeeding her. Until today she decided that she is old and strong enough to not have this exclusive food anymore.

I feel sad, and that is an understatement. It is beyond anyone's imagination (except for some Breastfeeding Mummies) how emotional this can be. To a lot of people, BF (breastfeeding) is such a painful and restrictive job, a job that they like to have it over and done with soon. But for me, it is such an amazing experience that is indescribable. The whole process is so beautiful and graceful but is definitely not seamless. I still remember when I was pregnant, I really hoped I will be able to BF, and the feeling of offering your new born her first food, seeing her suck and swallow brought tears to my eyes. I was so happy that I was not only able to provide a womb for her to grow in, but also the most precious food for her to take in order to grow. I encountered a lot of hardship during the first month, it was so sore, Ginn kept asking me if I wanted to quit but I stood strong and put my pain aside and kept telling myself this is the best for Bean, I have to give it to her for at least 3 months no matter how difficult it can be; 3 months went by, and I said to myself at least 6 months; 6 months went by and I said to myself: 1 year. I was so proud and happy that Bean never had any formula until when she almost turn 1. She lived off and grew up solely based on my offerings for 6 months. I had been feeding her, doing the same thing over and over again, from 12 times a day to 3 times a day, for 11.5 months, and I look at her with so much love when she is on me, and now, it's all done. The withdrawal symptom is very strong. I feel very sad. I knew this will come one day but only if I knew when I would hold her so tight and tell her how much I have enjoyed every part of it, and thank you for showing me how beautiful it can be.

I can see today Bean had been very insecure and is very clingy to me. I guess in a way she doesn't feel secure that something is missing, something is changing. But as I said to her, "I respect your decision and I will always love you just the same, if not more".

Thank you Bean for accomplishing such an amazing journey with me, it is beyond beautiful. I have learn a lot during the entire process and most importantly, having you by my side conquers everything, and I do mean everything.

I love you so much, so much, always and forever.

A relaxing day

I have always liked mirrors since I was young, now that I can hold a mirror myself I won't give up any chance in admiring myself!



We went to the Zoological Park later in the day and Daddy was explaining to me how my previous hair style matches perfectly with the birds in the cage.

My 1st Birthday Party!

Today I had my first birthday party! I had so much fun! I must thank all my friends who came! We had Parker, Moorea, Ethan, Issy, Nana, Olivia, Max (Boo), Jeffrey, Sky, Kiva, Siena, Stella, Anders, Alex, Lisa, Clara, Holly, Natalie, Nat, James, Oscar, and another Max. Mummy made 2 cakes, one for babies to eat and the other is for adults. We had so much fun! Also a big kiss and thank you to my friends who didn't turn up but still gave me a present. Look at all the presents I got! I wonder how my party that Popo is throwing me is going to be like?

Preparations for my 1st Bitrhday Party

Mummy and Daddy are throwing me my 1st birthday party tomorrow! I am soooooooooo excited about it! Here are what they have done for me so far:

Birthday invitation

Rubber ducks for favour

Favours wrapped up

And they had too much fun while preparing some images....

I know Mummy is going to make me a cake tomorrow, so let's hope it is going to be something yummy!

Swimming today

Today was a very hot day! It was 27C!! Since it was such a nice day, Mummy felt that we should do something fun- we went swimming-in her bath tub!!! I guess it was kind of small but I had lots of fun!

Getting ready

Enjoying the pampering

This can tell you how long I was swimming for!

Boring week here.......

Last week there was an outbreak of Influenza in Hong Kong. The government has asked all Kindergartens and Primary schools to close early for their Easter Break in order to stop the spread of the virus. That means, my paranoid Mummy has stopped all my activities and I was forced to stay home... how boring... so what do we do everyday? We do potty training, see me in action- it's ok, you won;t be able to smell me through the photo. What's so funny? Why are you laughing? Yes, I like to read a book while I am doing my big business, don't you?Since there is nothing to do, I like to snack to make my day go by quicker, and I love my Maxi gogo so I share with him my favourite rice cracker.

Welcome, teeth!

I finally got more teeth coming to join my existing 4 teeth, they are the top and bottom right teeth. Where are the left ones? Is my mouth going to look lope-sided??